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Bondman · 04-30-2008, 04:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Faithwoman

I have learned so much in my walk to be a mature Christian. I continue to learn.
I am being honest this morning, that I feel a piece of me is still trying to hold on to what I want... and not relying on him 100%..
What I mean by this is:
I was apartment hunting the other day.. It was a nice place and all, when speaking with the Landlord, they stated they require a 2 year lease.. I got an application to fill out.. when I left.. I found the nearest parking lot pulled over and started to bawl.

Why you might ask? Well I felt by potentially signing a 2 year lease that "MY" life would be put on hold. You see I am in a dating relationship, have been for almost 2 years now.. my heart's desire is to be married again, to have a family unit.. to not be alone, to wake up every day, come home every day to a husband, to have someone to hold me, cherish me etc.. you get the picture? The Lord really has blessed me.. he truly has.. I have come great strides in my walk with him.. I must admit that the sexual purity one and others can be frustrating at times.. You see there is a part of me that still wants things in "my' time.. I had thought that I had let go of the majority of that.. but it came rushing back in to me.. However, after praying and such it was good.. it really made me truly look at the relationship I was in and what it was all about.. as the Lord has worked on other things there as well.

MORE IMPORTANTLY:=- IT MADE ME LOOK AT WHERE I AM WITH MY WALK WITH HIM.. HE WANTS IT ALL.. NOT JUST 90%.. UNTIL I GET TO THAT POINT.. UNTIL WE ALL GET TO THAT POINT. WE WILL STRUGGLE..

Life is to short.. each day is ticking away.. I ask myself this morning:

Do you remeber your dreams? Do you really want to?
How am I going to get there?

Well the answer is simple.. but I try to make it complicated. Trust in him, give it all to him.. walk each moment of life with him..
I will start this morning with reminding myself with the message of Bondmans that I quoted.

But more importantly.. I need to focus on what the Lord's dream for me is.. his is simple.. not complicated.. he just wants me.. me and my heart.. 100%..by doing that.. he will continue to bless me and see the desires of my heart.

Glory be to the father this morning!

Robin

Wow, that's an incredibly honest appraisement of your life, dear one!! Thankyou for sharing it with us. We can then pray for you.

"You know Robin's heart, Lord. You see who she is, and how much she wants all of You. But You know how hard it is dealing with the flesh and it's wants cos You lived down here, and experienced all of that. May Your love and understanding of what she's going through, and Your power that is in her, help her to the place she wants, and You want. Thankyou, Lord Jesus, for hearing our prayers!"

- BM